We all want to be loved. Fearlessly, hopelessly, and unconditionally. This desire trumps any other desire the human heart could ever have. We want to be loved more than we want to give love, because I think our spirit/soul recognizes that someone, somewhere is meant to love us this way. We seek it out so much, that we subconsciously look for it in everyone and everything. In our parents, friends, teachers, colleagues, employers, spouses, and children, but still, we remain dissatisfied with what we receive from them.
Why is it never enough? Because as beautiful as most of these relationships and interactions may be, they are all ultimately tainted by virtue of their humanity. We are imperfect and flawed, primarily looking out for our own interests. We are always justifying our flaws and excusing our behavior, but so quick to find fault in others, resulting in disagreements, irritation, anger, and hate. As hard as we often try to, we are simply incapable of loving unconditionally.
Well, fear not because there is hope. I would like to share with you that the love we all seek, truly does exist, and it can be found in Christ. A love so natural deriving from a supernatural entity. A love so true but so difficult to comprehend. A love so free but incredibly expensive. This love is found in Jesus, the Savior of the world, and is made available to all of us if we seek it out and accept it
The Perfect Love Of God
Well, fear not because there is hope. I would like to share with you that the love we all seek, truly does exist, and it can be found in Christ. A love so natural deriving from a supernatural entity. A love so true but so difficult to comprehend. A love so free but incredibly expensive. This love is found in Jesus, the Savior of the world, and is made available to all of us if we seek it out and accept it.
I was motivated to write on God’s love not only from His perception- because in truth It still confounds me how a perfect God could love such imperfect people- but also from my own personal experience with this Divine love.
I was raised in a broken home, with a single mother who did her best to raise my sister and I the best way she knew how. Naturally broken homes leave cracks in our souls often subconsciously, and these cracks develop and play out in various hurts and outbursts over time. Mine translated into severe rejection, hopelessness, and self-loathing.
I grew up believing that I was worthless & useless because I was attention deprived. I sought this very attention in various ways, but it was still not enough. Isolation became my solace, I was just too weird, quirky, strange, and odd to fit in anywhere and honestly, I believed nobody cared enough to spare me a second look so being a loner was my go-to. This deep-rooted rejection followed me everywhere, at school, home, college, work, in friendships, and relationships. I always had one foot out the door in any setting because I thought I was not good or worthy enough, so to avoid further hurt, I put impenetrable walls around my heart.
It goes without saying that this form of self-sabotage damaged most if not all my relationships and made functioning in an already difficult world nearly impossible. However, at the time, I didn’t see it in that way, I was truly convinced that nobody loved me, and nobody ever would.
Strangely enough, I’ve always been a hopeless romantic since I was a little girl. I always believed that my prince charming is somewhere in the world, and that he would come rescue me from my self-depreciating thoughts, Wisk me away in his all-consuming love and vanquish all rejection forever and ever. But seeking or rather waiting for this prince charming with this jaded mindset didn’t make him materialize. It wasn’t until I finally found Him or rather, He found me that I realized I was looking for prince charming or rather Love in all the wrong places.
Believing In The Impossible
That Him, was Jesus. Jesus chased, wooed, courted me in the way I have always wanted, but didn’t know I needed. Even when I kept running, rejecting, and mocking Him, he still sought me out. He’s been telling me all my life that He loves me with an immeasurable love, but my self-consuming thoughts muted his gentle nudges. Understanding that He sought me out at my worst helped make me pliable to not only receiving His love but being able to love Him back. My measly mortal love back to this magnificent Deity, it’s laughable really.
This experience has been life changing. I’ve truly never known or experienced a love like Christ’s because it doesn’t exist outside of Him. I want to encourage you today to stop setting impossible expectations for others, but most importantly, yourself. We were never meant to be everything to each other. We were created for far more than that. The Creator of the universe made us so we could have a relationship with Him and know Him personally. By virtue of this, He made us with a God sized void that only He can fill. Jesus is the ultimate source of the love we seek because we can only find it in Him.
When I finally understood this, life not only became easier but truly beautiful. I know what being loved feels like because My King loves me, and He loves you too!
